update.

I am going to start at begining starting last year so you have full history of whats going on with me.

Last year I moved out of my parents home and moved out to scottsbluff, Ne it was my first real time being that far out and for so long. It was long ugly battle with me internaly more then you guys can ever guess. During that time I had car problems, job problems, and major depression more then most ppl here know. I moved out to area where I was completly blind and had no clue about area besides what I researched online. During that time I was expermaly lonely and bored. In the end I made few friends out there but during time i was thinking I found my home for good I got fired from my job and did not make it past 6 months. So I moved back in with my parents and sunk into depression even more.

Few weeks later I got job working at walmart in ames, ia but after 3 weeks I got job out in Cedar Rapids, IA. Where I moved out there. And thus it started again looking for apartment and more. In the end I moved into apartment with month to month rent. But I did not move into best area and few weeks after moving out there my tires got slashed on driver side. No idea why or who did it. but they did. During that time I was NOC Tech working for Tech systems contracted out to McLeod, USA. But in Jan I got noticed my job was being termanted due to other company buying them out and they did not use contractors. Thus any church hunting church I had been vistiing went in the dust. So after living out there other month and finding nothing I moved back in with my parents.

Then 3 weeks later I got job out in Topeka, KS where i am living today. About 8 months ago I moved out here and started my new life. I was now Service Tech for Cooper Communications Group(CCG)/Gobal Tel*Link(GTL). I montier and maintian the inmate phone systems in state of kansas. I am only kansas tech. And yes I go into jail. To be more on point I go into county jails. I am on call 24-7 365 days year. I am on salary with ability to go on overtime as well. Good things is my job is going great. I know during this time my job is completly safe. infact if anything they want to hire second person up here but it wont happend till next year at lest.

Now we go to my personal life. Sadly I have no social life, I have no friends in real life, no co workers(nearest are 6 hours away), no home church, no family near by or anything. I have been church hunting but no one noticed single christian guy hunting for home church. Most of the time I am completly ingored and no one notices me or anything. Most I get is greating at front door and that is it. After that I get nothing.

I find most churchs and alot of christian and most. Hyprical ppl who say oh we welcome everyone and want to make everyone feel at home. Well so far for me that has not happend. They notice couples, They notice familys and such. But not single christian hunting for home church. Right now I am battling depression but its hard ppl and its hard to have hope in future things will change. Im trying but its hard. Only thing keeping me sane is few close online friends, My faith and believe in Christ. Talk radio, And hoping there is some tihng more out there but on this I no longer know. That is it.

Right now next time you see some one visiting your church take time to great them each week if they come and make them feel welcome it may do wonders for person more then you will know.

I guess with this it ends on what I am saying. If you want to move this to prayer area that is ok. Since I do need prayer as well. But it was time I give full update. Forgive me but this is me now days.

Joshadn

update on my life:

I guess its been to long since i posted in here. Alot has happend since my last post in my life.
Time to pick up last year. Back in Aug it seems my life changed when I was living in Scottsbluff and he sent some friends to me finaly. After much trails in my life he sent me some friends. I spent alot of time getting to know them out there and made some great friends i keep in tuch to this day. But Sept was also month of change for me as well for that was month I lost my job at embarq and moved back in with my parents. I lived with them for 2 to 3 months untill 11.2007.

There I was contacted by Tech systems out in Cedar Rapids, IA where I went to live and work as contractor for Mcloed, USA in the Service Delivory Depermenent. I ended up church hoping and still am but since Mcleod is being buyed out by Paytek and paytek does not use contactors well I am kind of out of luck since paytek does not use contactors. Thus I am out of luck. My contact is up tomorrrow and I am back looking for job again. It seems I cant hold job and I am at lost at what the Lord has planned for me I learned I could enjoy working in Cube which is strange to me but I am learning alot still. I just wish the Lord would show me his will and where he wants me to go and stay even for few years. Insteed of few months now and then.

This time at lest leaving Mcleod, USA it is not due to local ppl which reports I am hearing they like me alot but its coperate office who is deciding this. Oh well.

I would like people to keep me in there prayers as I search for job again.
At lest I know my life is in God's Hands and I must trust him and where he leads me I will follow. I must have total trust in God and Jesus and ask Him to reveal his will to me and his goal in my life for me to go after with all my heart. For I love my Lord Jesus Christ. My Faith maybe shacken at times but I know what I am and know I must follow the Lord.

Good Day. Joshua Nielsen. Living in Cedar Rapids, IA/

think about people you have meet

I want you all to take the time and think about people you have ran accross in your life. People who have tryed to talk to you in real life and online. What you may have not known is they may have been lonely. And looking for friend and you ingored them. Turned on them and more. Think about it hard and next time reach out and try and be friend. Be there to listen and stick through it to the end. For you maybe the person that lonely person needs at there time of need. Joshadn

more on friends and what I said earlyer

OK its time for me expland on what I said earlyer. I want you all to read this song I have found to be very true. And if you can listen to it online. Just remember this song as I am speaking from explerance is true song and you all need to read it and think on your friends and ppl that have been your friends.

----Tracy Lawrence - Find Out Who Your Friends Are-----

Run your car off the side of the road,
get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere...
Get yourself in a bind, lose your shirt off your back,
need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare...
This is where the rubber meets the road,
this is where the cream is gonna rise...
This is what you really didn't know,
this is where the truth don't lie

Chorus:
You find out who your friends are,
somebody's gonna drop everything,
run out and crank up their car,
hit the gas, get there fast, never stop to think
What's in it for me, or its way to far
They just show on up¦with their big ol heart...
You find out who your friends are

Everybody wants to slap your back,
wants to shake your hand when
you're up on top of that mountain.
Let one of those rocks give way,
then you slide back down,
look up and see who's around then.
This is ain't where the road comes to an end,
this ain't where the bandwagon stops,
This is just one of those times when a lot of folks jump off

Chorus:
You find out who your friends are,
somebody's gonna drop everything,
run out and crank up their car,
hit the gas, get there fast, never stop to think
What's in it for me, or its way to far...
They just show on up with their big old heart.
You find out who your friends are

When the waters high,
when the weather's not so bad,
when the well runs dry...
Who's gonna be there?

You find out who your friends are,
somebody's gonna drop everything,
run out and crank up their car,
hit the gas, get there fast, never stop to think
What's in it for me, or its way to far
They just show on up with their big ol heart.
You find out who your friends are yeah yeah

You find out who your friends are
Run your car off the side of the road,
get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere (man I been there)
Get yourself in a bind, lose your shirt off your back,
need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare
(man I been there¦man I been there)

hates weekends

Dear every one reading this. I have come to the point of where I hate the weekend and more. Only thing good on weekend is church and that is it. I am so lonely on the weekend its not even funny. Since moving out here to scottsbluff at times I wonder if its worth it. Holidays are no fun too when your alone. I am speaking from experience here after spending few holidays like this I have come to the point of this. I have no friends in real life. And any friends I have now I need to keep.



For this 4th of july I went and took my bros comp to bestbuy to get it fixed then I came home and shot off some fireworks and watch them. That is it nothing more. Nothng less.



I am no longer sure what to do any more. Only thing that gets me by is work, church, and God and that is it. My one true friend online has been sheryl ever since my closest online friend turned on me and back stabed me on my time of need. I am desperate for friends in real life I cant stress how much I am right now. Its no fun being alone. I hope you never have to go through what I am right now. Only thing I have right now is faith and trust in God and that is it. So you all think about your friends next time and what they are going through you may never know even those many miles away. Good day
Josh

Info on my Blog and blogs to come

This is going to be a blog for friends and family and those back in Iowa. My name is Joshua N. I am communications Tech with Embarq and moving out to Scottsbluff, Neb. I am starting my new job on April 16th. THis blog will tell about my daily life for most part and whats going on. No idea how offen I will be updating this but I plan on to update this once a week at lest. I will keep this going as long as I can. ANy one wishing to talk to me by email feel free to email me at joshadn@hotmail.com I check that offen and will ttry to reply to all emails I get from you guys.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and my updates to come.

Joshadn