update.

I am going to start at begining starting last year so you have full history of whats going on with me.

Last year I moved out of my parents home and moved out to scottsbluff, Ne it was my first real time being that far out and for so long. It was long ugly battle with me internaly more then you guys can ever guess. During that time I had car problems, job problems, and major depression more then most ppl here know. I moved out to area where I was completly blind and had no clue about area besides what I researched online. During that time I was expermaly lonely and bored. In the end I made few friends out there but during time i was thinking I found my home for good I got fired from my job and did not make it past 6 months. So I moved back in with my parents and sunk into depression even more.

Few weeks later I got job working at walmart in ames, ia but after 3 weeks I got job out in Cedar Rapids, IA. Where I moved out there. And thus it started again looking for apartment and more. In the end I moved into apartment with month to month rent. But I did not move into best area and few weeks after moving out there my tires got slashed on driver side. No idea why or who did it. but they did. During that time I was NOC Tech working for Tech systems contracted out to McLeod, USA. But in Jan I got noticed my job was being termanted due to other company buying them out and they did not use contractors. Thus any church hunting church I had been vistiing went in the dust. So after living out there other month and finding nothing I moved back in with my parents.

Then 3 weeks later I got job out in Topeka, KS where i am living today. About 8 months ago I moved out here and started my new life. I was now Service Tech for Cooper Communications Group(CCG)/Gobal Tel*Link(GTL). I montier and maintian the inmate phone systems in state of kansas. I am only kansas tech. And yes I go into jail. To be more on point I go into county jails. I am on call 24-7 365 days year. I am on salary with ability to go on overtime as well. Good things is my job is going great. I know during this time my job is completly safe. infact if anything they want to hire second person up here but it wont happend till next year at lest.

Now we go to my personal life. Sadly I have no social life, I have no friends in real life, no co workers(nearest are 6 hours away), no home church, no family near by or anything. I have been church hunting but no one noticed single christian guy hunting for home church. Most of the time I am completly ingored and no one notices me or anything. Most I get is greating at front door and that is it. After that I get nothing.

I find most churchs and alot of christian and most. Hyprical ppl who say oh we welcome everyone and want to make everyone feel at home. Well so far for me that has not happend. They notice couples, They notice familys and such. But not single christian hunting for home church. Right now I am battling depression but its hard ppl and its hard to have hope in future things will change. Im trying but its hard. Only thing keeping me sane is few close online friends, My faith and believe in Christ. Talk radio, And hoping there is some tihng more out there but on this I no longer know. That is it.

Right now next time you see some one visiting your church take time to great them each week if they come and make them feel welcome it may do wonders for person more then you will know.

I guess with this it ends on what I am saying. If you want to move this to prayer area that is ok. Since I do need prayer as well. But it was time I give full update. Forgive me but this is me now days.

Joshadn